This is where I live at the moment.<\/p>\n
It is a German “Jagdschlo\u00df” (Hunting Castle) in Lower Saxony.
\nThere is a Rocky Mountain Stud there, where I work as a groom, looking after 50+ horses.
\n(As far as my cat is concerned, my job is to play “Stick and String” with her all day.)
\nHard work, I can tell you that much. (Especially since I play Stick and String when I get in!)
\nMy apartment is inside the castle, and things really do go bump in the night — even though it’s usually just the pipes banging \/ vibrating. Or the cat, trying to liberate something from a cardboard box.<\/p>\n
I’ve been here since October 2015, and I’m no closer to figuring out what to do with my life, than I was 5 months ago.
\nThere doesn’t seem to be much point to life, without Paul. Yes, I can go anywhere I want (sort of), do what I like (in a way), and my enthusiasm is practically nil.
\nI still have oodles of stuff to do, and sort out, and absolutely no drive to do it. I don’t know if others get this way too, but I know I just don’t even want to think about it. I do want it sorted, but I’m far away at the moment and it’s not that easy.
\nIt’s not helped by not having much (if any) help from anyone.
\nIf I didn’t have Pixie and Oz…well. Who knows.<\/p>\n
But alas, I’m not sure I’ll ever be happy again. I feel Paul’s loss more every day, and I miss him. God, how I miss him.
\nLove isn’t physical, you know? Yes, I miss the physical intimacy, the hugs, the kisses. But I miss sharing more. Thoughts, ideas, aspirations, setbacks, experiences – you name it. I so often ask Paul for his opinion, and it hurts not having it.
\nAnyway, I won’t bore you with all that.<\/p>\n
Spring is outside the door at the moment, birds are chirping (much to Pixie’s delight) and the grass and trees are sloooowly taking on a greener hue.
\nThe first foals have arrived. Much work to do!
\nWhich means… it is time to go to work!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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